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Hi, my name is Carol. I've been a network anchor and correspondent for CNN and ABC News. I am now a cancer survivor because I'm the one who lived. When I lost my husband to a rare cancer, I raged against the wind. Why did God and the Universe give us a baby but take her father away? Maybe our story really is about hope, strength, courage. It's time I report on something that goes right to the heart of the matter for cancer families: how life changes, how cancer creates opportunities for us to ask tough questions and demand answers. Isn't that what a journalist is suppose to do? I want to share my journey. I want to hear from you.

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Oct 1st, 2007

Personal Journal: Diagnosis: Cancer Nov 25th 2002

So happy. I am six months pregnant and have never felt so peaceful in all my life. We're jokingly calling her   "Flavia"---because we can't agree on a name.

My cell phone rang this afternoon. I saw it was Will, but let it go to voice mail. The burgers had just arrived and I was starved. Now I'm avoiding the truth of what happened next because I'm still numb from the news. I want to be telling someone else's story.

When I got in the car, I checked the message. Will sounded so scared. "I just came from the oral surgeon. It's cancer." I can still hear the short breath he took in and then a sob. "It's cancer."  I kept saying over and over, it's going to be alright. We're going to be fine. I'm coming home. Have you ever felt yourself outside your body? I felt removed, but so scared. I can still feel my hands tighten on the leather steering wheel.  My head was going numb. My fingers wound around the wheel. I felt like it was about to break off. This can't happen. This will be fine. We just get over this. We're having a baby. He's going to be fine.

I pulled up the driveway and he ran towards me and I just hugged and held him on the back patio.

They say more than a million people share this exact moment every year. Half of them will die. He can't die. He's got to be a father. He can't die. This can't be such a big deal. I called Sanjay at work. He's a brain surgeon at Emory.   Our appointment with the head and neck surgeon isn't for another WEEK. Can't live without answers. Must push."

To my EP readers: How do you find courage in the face of bad news? How has dealing with a cancer diagnosis tested your love? What are solutions to finding strength?


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Posted on 08:00AM on Oct 20th, 2007
For me, the only thing I could do was PRAY. Because in experiences like that, which could just pin you to the floor, for me, I have to have the ability to look up into the Universe and call out to God for strength.
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Carol Lin

Carol Lin is a journalist who served as news anchor for CNN, national correspondent for ABC's "Good Morning America" and reported for World News Tonight with Peter Jennings. She has been honored with numerous awards for her work, including three Los Angeles Press Club Awards and the National IMAGE Award.

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